Future Story

Have you ever thought about your life as a book waiting to be written? We are the authors of our own book and we fill the pages with the story we want to write. Living life with intention gives us the power to react and embrace life in victory or defeat. We get to choose. Partnering with God in dreaming and vision for the future is what we were created for. Do you remember when you were a child? Did you dream of doing great things? But somewhere along the way words were spoken…to us, through us, over us that diminished those dreams. I don’t know about you, but I became discouraged… “put-in-my-place” with word’s like, “reality check” or “who do you think you are” or “just what makes you think…”. I watched as my parents, teachers and others settled in for a life of “status quo”, just getting by and well, I just figured that was the way to be… and I stopped being a “dreamer”.

But the one thing I didn’t account for was the dreams God has had for me. God has dreams for you too! Do you know, when He created you He looked at you as His MASTERPIECE?

Ephesians 2:10

“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”(Living Translation).

Long ago, before you were even born He had plans for you!

Yes, He created you and has plans for you, plans to give you a hope and a future. But it is up to me to partner with Him in these plans. Those dreams you dare not dream anymore? Yeah, those dreams you have steeled away in your heart behind locked doors? Those dreams you thought were too big and you couldn’t figure out how it could ever happen? Yeah, those dreams! I dare you to dream!

The beautiful thing about having a dream that is bigger than our capacity is that you simply do not have the wherewithal to make it happen outside of God’s intervention. And guess what… He is waiting for you! He put those dreams in your heart too big for you to accomplish without Him. He desires you. He desires to help you and spend time with you. He will open every door as you bring your dreams to Him. It may take some time but when you partner with God his word is “Yes” and “Amen!” What’s your Future Story?

Psalm 139

For you created my inmost being;
    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
    your works are wonderful,
    I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you
    when I was made in the secret place,
    when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;
    all the days ordained for me were written in your book
    before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!
    How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them,
    they would outnumber the grains of sand—
    when I awake, I am still with you.

The Journey “IS” the Destination


Lately, my favorite saying has been, “The Journey IS the Destination!” This has begun to settle over me like a warm, cozy blanket on a a cold night. In the past I was always waiting to arrive some place… some position… some security… some destination. It has finally begun to sink in that THIS is the Destination. Right where I’m at is the destination for this season of my life. Don’t get me wrong though… I’m definitely not settling! In fact, I’m just getting started!

For me, this revelation has freed me more to dream. Does that make any sense at all? Once I came to the realization that I am just where I’m supposed to be, accept it and rest in it, the whole world opened up to me. Knowing that my Father loves me and has the best plans for me gives me a whole new perspective on where I’m at and where I’m going. Trusting that He wants to partner with me in doing great things has led me to a place of rest. And boy, oh boy, has he given me some dreams!

As September 2016 rolls in I’m preparing for my 2nd year at Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Toward the end of last year, (May to be exact), I received a beautiful download for my future that was completely unexpected while at the same time not surprising at all. In 2012 I wrote my mission statement; “I am called by the power of the  Holy Spirit to set the captives free; to bring Peace and Shalom to the brokenhearted”, however, it seemed everything I had attempted in that regard just fell flat. But as I look back on these past few years I see that “Nothing was wasted… He is preparing me”. I see clearly the path in front of me and even at 62 I’m excited to get started. With full intentionality, I am being equipped with all the tools needed to bring inner healing to those who desire change in their lives. Here at BSSM there are classes available to help me on my way, as well as other ministries I plan to partner with to round out my training.

Eventually, my desire is to open The Peace Ranch – Center for Healing for complete Body, Soul and Spirit restoration and renewing. Since receiving this beautiful download in May, this dream is never far from my mind and now everything I do is working toward seeing this dream come to fruition. I trust He created me for such a time as this and everything will work together as I walk through the doors open… preparing me for this next season in my life. Deep inside I know I was made for this. Now if I can just rest in the fact that I’m right where I should be…

Nothing is Wasted! He is Preparing me!

Currently, I am continuing to raise needed funds to attend BSSM. Will you consider partnering with me by making a donation, sewing a seed, helping a friend? No donation amount is too small. $25, $50, $100… every dollar will help me reach my deadline of 8/30/16. Here is the link to log into my BSSM page to make a donation:


Thank you to all of you who have supported me in my dream to attend Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry. Thank you for believing in me! Thank you for helping me to make this dream a reality! I pray favor on your life, untold blessings and deep intimacy with Him who made you! May my life be an inspiration to you as yours is to me!

I love you all,


The Snake & the Dove

il_570xN.806528222_21ssSouthern California has a big rattlesnake population, especially in spring. Each year the warnings go out to watch your steps, keep brush trimmed and pets on leashes. 2015 was no different. But I wasn’t about to let that stop my training for the longest hike of my life. You see, in May 2015 I was planning to fly to Spain and spend 6 weeks walking a 500 mile pilgrimage on the Camino de Santiago.

Lots of training needed to be done to prepare my body for the long walk that lie ahead. So on this particular day in February we had planned to tackle our very first 10 mile “training” trek. I knew the trail. I had walked it before. The back country of San Clemente, her rugged peaks reach up to the clear blue skies. Dusty trails through vistas of sage brush and dry arid hills stretch out as far as the eye can see. Far off the main road we walked. Hiking sticks prodding the ground in front of us, we kept the conversation going and the music playing if only to let the desert creatures know we were there. These dry hills made a barren contrast to the beautiful blue Pacific to our backs and the distant pine covered mountains that loomed far off in front of us. The rugged desert terrain is home to all sorts of creatures, from bob cats to Mountain lions and everything else in between.

The morning was cool and crisp and growing warmer as we pressed on. As we crested a high peak we turned back to take one more look at the shining blue pacific now several miles away. Her azure color and white capped waves gave us comfort knowing we were only a short distance from home even though it felt like we were in another country. The hard packed trail was well beaten down and rocky for most of the hike and then suddenly, it wasn’t.  Walking along, we realized the trail had turned from hard clay to a light powdery dust. So light, was this powder that with every step puffs of dust would waft into the air, raining down lightly on our shoes. As we walked along our shoes turned powdery white. Three inches deep, our feet would sink in and disappear.

“It must be high noon by now,” I thought to myself. No trees to shade our walk were anywhere in sight. The sun beat down and we began to sweat. We had come 5 miles in and it was beginning to feel like time to rest, refuel, rehydrate…(The rules when you are hiking). We began to look for a place to sit awhile. As we thought about stopping I had a very eerie feeling come over me. Something just wasn’t right. I said, “Let’s not stop here in this dust. Let’s get over this ridge and stop on the other side.” I took a few more steps, took hold of my surroundings and was suddenly shocked by what I was seeing.

In front of us…everywhere we looked were hundreds of snake imprints in the dust. Like super highways crisscrossing this way and that, in front, behind and all around us we stood smack dab in the middle. The diamond imprints of the rattlers were visible in every single track. Nothing moved. No sound came from the bushes. No wind blew. The hot air suddenly felt like a fiery furnace with fresh coals thrown on it. So as not to alarm my friend I casually said, “Desiree, look at the imprints on the ground. Let’s move out of here quick.” We pressed on and came out of the maze of snake trails in what felt like an eternity.

As we came over the ridge the ground turned solid and rocky again and we both breathed a sigh of relief.  We drudged down the slope, pounding our feet to shake off the dust as if to leave it all behind. Down the hill we found a flat spot, spread out our head covers and after taking a good stretch, sat down to rest. We ate fruit and cheese and protein bars. We gulped down water and sipped away at our energy drinks. We were talking and laughing when something caught my eye. Something was moving up the trail from where we had just come. As I tried to focus my eyes on this peculiar sight I could see a small, white creature walking along the trail, straight toward us. I brought this to my companion’s attention and we both watched at what I was convinced was some sort of bird walking down the trail. Maybe 100 yards away it progressed, walking back and forth, steadily downward… walking the entire way. At one point I thought, “Maybe this is a duck because what other white bird walks along the ground for that distance?”  Then, when it was about 25 feet away, it gave flight. As it soared into the blue sky we could see it was a beautiful white dove. It proceeded to fly one large circle around us. Then again and again it circled us as if to triumphantly proclaim itself. We sat still in utter amazement. Here, in the middle of nowhere… no trees or shade and dry arid ground was the loveliest white dove greeting us in its entire splendor.

Suddenly we felt the most amazing joy come over us. Our delight was more than the sight of this beautiful dove. The presence of the Holy Spirit was immediately known and felt right there in this dazzling moment. It was as if He was saying, “Do not be afraid…I was with you then and I am with you now. You were not alone in the dusty snake den. I am with you, always with you. I was behind you watching. Nothing will harm you. Be of good cheer!” A rush of love and joy came over us like a bubbling brook running over giggling stones on its way. We looked at each other and laughed and laugh. He was with us and He wanted us to know! We were about to head off to Spain and walk with 20lb backpacks, over mountains and valleys, in pouring rain and hot humid days. But now we knew He was with us. We would not be afraid. Nothing would harm us!

The snakes of life may slither around but He is with us! In John 14 Jesus said, “Do not be afraid for I will send you another comforter… And He will be with you and He will be IN you!” The Holy Spirit comes in the form of the dove all throughout scripture and Satan (the devil) comes as a slithering snake. The reminder for us could not be more clear. Our God is such a creative Father and He loves to delight His kids with His presence. He loves to commune with us and give us Hope for our future.

In May, 2015 we did indeed walk our Camino in Spain and now it is a distant memory. But we will never forget the day we had this amazing spiritual encounter… the day the supernatural became the natural and spoke to us loud and clear. We will never be the same.

Partnering with God

holding hands shadows


Partnering with God is a day by day transaction between the two of us. He is always ready to reach me, to speak, to touch my life and meet my needs. But He is also “growing me up”. Lessons I could never learn if He did it “to me” or “for me” are being taught as we walk hand in hand down this road called life.

I have this vision of us… me, letting go of His hand and running circles around him as he walks and laughs at me. Me saying, “What about this Lord… this is for me! Let’s give this a try!” Then every once in awhile He stops and says, “Now you’re on to something! Let’s do that!” Sometimes, I see an amazing adventure up ahead and I let go of His hand, running full throttle to the ledge. The delight is always out of my reach, over the chasm, on the other side of the river or over a fence. I look back and holler, “Come on Lord! Hurry!” Jumping up and down, “Let’s do this!”

He never breaks His stride. Laughing as he walks along, (always carrying a case with lots of things for me), he says, “Beckah, you know you can’t get to the other side without me! Come back and walk with me. Hold my hand and all will come in time.”

How patient is our Papa God! How He loves us! He is always tell me, “Beckah, I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.” (Jeremiah 29:11) …and I trust Him now. He has shown me the way. He is making all my crooked paths straight. As we walk along I sometimes let go of his hand. I sometimes run ahead with excitement… but I know where my hope lies… my hope lies in Him. So, in the end I always run back, take his hand and carry on, laughing and chatting, loving and trusting his embrace. He often looks down and me, smiles and says, “We’ll get there, Beckah… trust me.” …. and… I…. do!

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you.  Show me the way I should go, for to you I entrust my life.” Psalm 143:8

Partnering With God

One day, as I was walking along the Camino de Santiago, I felt the presence of God come over me. As I walked along my conversation was directed to asking Him, “What am I good for, Lord? What plans do you have for me? Am I meant to sit in my house and do accounting for the rest of my days? Surely, there has to be more to life that this!” As I walked along I felt his presence settle on me. I began to hear Him say, “What do you want, Beckah? What do you want to do?” Suddenly, my head was filled with things I never dared to dream before. Big things, small things… places to go, relationships to foster.

One of the first things that came to mind that day was this… “When you finish this trek, pack you house, put it all in storage and go to West Virginia to see your niece, Debbie.” “Well, that’s a strange idea,” I thought. I mean, I knew my niece was building a new house and I knew she and her hubby were facing a big move from one house to another, with 2 small boys… not to mention horses, chickens and pets! So, I let that thought percolate in my mind for the next few days. How hard could it be, driving 2000 miles across the country from California to West Virginia and then back again? Me and my dog, Roxy could hit the road and stop along the way and see some friends I haven’t seen in years, visit my sister & brother in Ohio. What an adventure! After walking 500 miles on the Camino de Santiago I could do anything! And upon finishing the Camino I did just that.

The adventures and the testimonies of what God did on this trip are amazing and worth their own chapters, but the story I want to tell you is this.

God Likes Our Ideas

In Beni Johnson’s book The Happy Intercessor, she wrote, “God’s yes together with our yes is what brings about breakthrough in prayer.” This particular day, my sister and I were at my niece’s home and we were struggling to know just why we had come. We thought we had come to help Debbie clean, pack and prepare for her move to the new house… but God had other plans. You see, this place in the West Virginia ‘holler’ is the most palpable portal of God I have ever experienced. We spent days in worship and soaking in the presence of God when one day my sister said, “I feel like we are supposed to go over to the ‘new land’ and bless the land.” Yes, we all agreed and the phone calls were made to others to gather that following Wednesday at the property (17 acres in the valley), to walk the land and bless the land. Then my sister, who is an amazing intercessor said, “I feel like we are supposed to bless the land with the wine and oil, to pour it out on the land as a prophetic sign of restoration and redemption as of the blood of the lamb.” We arrived at the land and began to worship at the far front corner of the property. As we sang and prayed over the land, we poured out the wine and the oil on the land, blew the shofar and beat the drum. Suddenly, I looked up and what appeared in the sky was nothing I have ever seen before! The sky was completely clear but for one tiny little cloud just high above our heads. As we looked this cloud turned into the most amazing rainbow all within itself. There was no rainbow under it, around it or beneath it… the cloud was eminating a prism of color in and of itself. We all gazed at the glory and we knew instantly that God was with us and he liked our idea!  We continued to walk the land… the entire 17 acres and spent time on each corner just singing and praising.


When it was all said and done, looking back on it all now, I know that was what this journey to West Virginia, (spawned in Spain), was all about; partnering with God to see His Kingdom come… on earth as it is in heaven! You see, Debbie and Travis have plans for Kingdom work on this very land. There is so much more than this life, my friends. We are here just for a moment! Eternity awaits and it is going to be filled with so much awe and wonder, adventures and incite you have never imagined. Jesus said, “Pray like this… Father… your Kingdom come, your will be done… ON EARTH… as it is in heaven!

This is what I was made for! Bringing the kingdom of God to the sons of man! What a way to be! Buen Camino!



Dream Big in 2016

In 2012 I wrote this in my journal…”I will walk the Camino de Santiago in May 2015.” Then I began to talk about it… Then I started training for long distance walks… Then I started saving for it. Today that walk across Spain is an amazing memory and a dream come true.


Training with my dogs in San Clemente

I just read this post on my facebook written by Miller Wallace. “The best way to cultivate dreaming in your sleep, is by pursuing making your physical dreams come true.
When you desire (have a dream about) something for your life, you have to prove to yourself that you will pursue making that come true. You have to build trust with your heart and mind. A dream is rooted in an influence, which becomes a thought, that causes a feeling that stirs up emotion inside of you.”
‪#‎dreamwithoutlimit‬ ‪#‎dream‬ ‪#‎trustyourself‬

Without a doubt, these words speak to my heart. As 2016 comes on us in just a few hours I wonder what your dreams are and how you are going about making those dreams a reality. For most of my life I never dared to dream dreams for myself. I was too busy dreaming up things for the people around me, thinking that if only they would get it right I could be happy and focusing on other people’s issues instead of my own. (But that’s another blog). Today, I have no lack of dreams and hope for my future, especially knowing that my retirement years are looming large over my head… so much to do… so little time! What will these next few years bring? Where will I be in 2016? What purpose might I fulfill with the remaining years of my life? There’s no time like the present to begin. Write it down. Begin to talk about it. Take a step toward that dream; whether it be a class, learning a language or donating your time to something you passionately want to change.

I’m done sitting in the parked car! Let’s start the car, put it in drive and just go somewhere! Where will you go? Follow your dream. Buen Camino my friends!


Recollections – 2015


Recollect… Re-collect…Remember. Recollection, pronounced “Re-Col-Lec-Tion”. The full definition is  (1)”tranquility of mind – religious contemplation, to collect oneself, to calm” or (2)”the action or faculty of remembering – a thing collected; a memory.”

As I sit here on the last days of December, 2015, and contemplate all this year has brought, I am in awe of how it all happened in just one year. As I recollect the memories of my Camino I realize it was, quite possibly, the most marvelous year of my life.

Joel 2:25 … “and I will restore to you the years that the locust have eaten” …and it has been so. In 2002, I thought my life was over. I never imagined life could be so good, so rich and full. Yet my God has supplied all my needs according to His riches in glory!

Something strange happened to me in the Spring of 2015. As I was clipping the dead winter bushes back I heard the Lords voice say to me, “Beckah, I gave you this little house because I know how much security means to you.” I said, “Yes, thank you for this house, Lord.” Then he said, “And I gave you this little dog because I love giving you good gifts.” I smiled and said, “Yes, Lord, thank you for Roxy.” Then it was very quiet… no words came to me… minutes passed… when all at once I heard Him say, “But when you are ready to jump, We’re going to FLY!” I jumped straight up and said, out loud, “What? We’re jumping again?”

…and did we ever! From my son getting married, to walking the Camino de Santiago – 500 miles across Spain, to driving 6000 miles across the USA from SoCal to Tulsa to Ohio and West Virginia… back to Sacramento and onto Redding, to packing up my life and moving to Redding, CA to attend Bethel… it has been quite a year! You might be wondering, am I tired? Do I have any regrets? But truth is… what I’m asking is… “What’s next?” Lord, what’s next? How are we going to top this in 2016?

For now, I’m at peace and resting in my recollections of 2015… but I am also expectant and excited to see what 2016 will bring. With hearts full of hope and the Lord as our Shepherd how can we go wrong! Buen Camino my friends!

1 Chronicles 4:10

“Oh, that You would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory, that Your hand would be with me, and that You would keep me from evil, that I may not cause pain!”